Where are you going?

...Today's Mood

2006-11-23T09:16:00.000+08:00

I want to go home and sleep...

Next Attractions!

2006-11-22T18:51:00.000+08:00

we saw this last monday sa joey 92.3 fm premiere night ---->

Suuuper cute! I want one!

Saw it with sep, chi + guiller, ms, jay + alvin.

<----Saw the trailer of this movie tooo

Soooo excited to watch na! sana may premiere night uli!

There's kissing scene..

That's whay everybody's excited about!

hehe

waltz

2006-11-19T09:50:00.000+08:00

A Typical weekend...

2006-11-18T20:16:00.000+08:00

Got bored with my old layout. So I changed the look of my page.

hopefully it'll bring back my enthusiasm to post entries...

haay marns you're so tamad!!!

we saw the Rockoustic final fusion concert last night. I brought my brother and cousins along. The youth generation today is so punk rockin' opm! My younger sis, bro and cousins all play the guitar and are into all that "banda" stuff. We were late... but just in time to see Up Dharma Down, Barbie A and Pupil... tama lang right? Ü

Congrats to 7th Skool who won the Rockoustic finals and to Proximity and Mediawise for a job well executed! yey! thanks to Ms Yeyet for the tix and the rockin' shirt yeah!

Also, I'm teachin again...Ü

Sunday School this December for the 4th quarter...

I'm teachin 3-4 year olds about God.. ain't that cool? I has an average of 12 kids in my class.

...and yet another challenge as I'll be teaching in our church's Kids Club...

This class on the other hand has 7 year olds who came from "Talayan Gilids" vs the former with kids from Talayan "Village". I have an average of 40 kids in my class!

This morning I woke up at around 6-ish am (after coming home at 1am last night from Rockoustic!) just so I can prepare for my 1st day as teacher in my Kids Club class. I didn't feel sleepy cos I was excited to do this project.

Class rocked! Our lesson was about creation and I had to use up all my drawing skills as I draw one by one all of God's creation on the blackboard. Frist day was light... that was easy, 2nd day was sky and waters... still easy, 3rd day was land... trees and mountains are a piece of cake to draw, even 3 year olds can draw those....6th and 7th day came the animals! Hala!

"Ano pang ibang hayop na gawa ng Diyos?"

"Lion!", "Tiger" "Monkey!", "Whale", "Shark", "Jellyfish!", "Hen"..."DINOSAUR!"

"Teka, hindi ako si God, marami na tayong animals, puno ba blackboard... hindi ko na kaya gumawa ng animals... may color na lang tayo!"

Haha!

Thanks to Seps pala for taking me to church this morning. Nakisabay lang ako cos he in turn has worship team practice. Galing mo na sa guitar bi! I'm proud of you!

I got into thinking... dami ko atang ginagawa? this just means...

NO MORE LATE NIGHT FRIDAY AND SATURDAY PARTIES! Patay tayo jan! Dec pa naman 'tis the season to celebrate with feasting and merriment! Well, gift ko na lang sayo yan Jesus, birthday mo naman e. Ü

Then this afternoon, for the first time, I went to SM North extension... the box... or the square ... whateveritsname these kids call the malls nowadays, . Anlamig. It looks like a mini Mall of Asia, design-wise and puro soon-to-open-shops-wise, hehe. went shopping for shoes and shirt. Thanks Ma for the stuff. Ala nako damit e. I'm fat na kasi! Shopping is not as fun anymore when you're a size bigger na. Huhu. this is depressing...

Addressed to ciara's concern Ü

2006-09-14T12:00:00.000+08:00

Well I do have a lot of new things happening... thus the big news.

New boss... new accounts... new work related things to come with the company overhaul.

Turning Sir Jo over to Ten tomorrow... ;) --->
Got new person in my life too ---> Ü♥
Love you wierdo!

... Will update my "new" things list soon!

--to be continued--

DEVIL WEARS FOLDED AND HUNG

2006-08-29T12:04:00.000+08:00

I saw the premiere of 'Devil Wears Prada' last night. It was truly an inspiring movie. Now I just want to quit my ukay-ukay ways and diet my way into fitting those designer dainties. Haha. Hala!

Im no Anne Hathaway, I can't pull those looks off!

But I'm sure many girls like me in this corporate stairway we find ourselves in (yes I'm a career woman na daw!) could relate to the same dilema of similar crossroads. Personal life/values vs dreams. Most of us have our own experiences with a 'Dragon Lady' (portrayed by Ms. Meryll Streep) and I'm no excemption. I suppose now its as much as global thing as brands. Local power trippers abound so you dreamy eyed young lasses be wary. WAKE UP and smell reality! Just be carefull who you let into your nerves and who you let shape your values.. because it doesn't matter whether the tag says Prada, Gucci, Mango, Espri or Folded and Hung... New York Big Apple or New York Cubao, where there is pressure and money, there will be these type of bosses -- past, present or future. But as the moral of the movie goes.. in dealing with them, you always have a choice.

IM BACK!

2006-08-29T11:32:00.000+08:00

Hayy, I missed my blog. I haven't posted anything in ages. Not that my life has nothing interesing going on... on the contrary actually!

I am yet again embarking on uncharted territories, doing many firsts and stumbling around falling bruising scratching myself failing all over again and loving every minute of it.
Literally and figuratively.

... but I'm happy. Very. Ü

They say change is the only constant thing that happens in life.

If you find yourself an expert in doing things because you've done it yesterday and the day before that and so on for so long, then, that's just boring.

That means you've been living your life the same way forever.. which means either you're old or your just not living up. My devotion today was about this verse in 2 Corinthians 3 which basically connects to the moral of not settling with the comforts of our old ways. There is power in us that needs harnessing. Wouldn't it be an injustice if we keep it all in for the price of comfort?

I need to challenge myself today. I know I need a new ministry... I'm out of Sunday School for this sem again. Uncertainties, insecurities, lack of skill even... I have all these to worry about, but to keep mentioning them would just be whining, so... mental note: JUST STUFF IT and BRING IT ON! Rarhh!

Attention Korean drama Fans!

2006-05-08T12:03:00.000+08:00

FYI to all club members! :P

You cannot claim to be caught in the Korean drama fever if you haven't seen "Il Mare", starring Jun Ji-Hyun (Sassy Girl) and Lee Jeong-Jae. Well, read the review if you haven't, cos I attentioned this to all Korean drama fans and I'm not gonna narrate the synopsis for those who aren't knowledgeable enough! haha.

Remember speed? 1st team-up of Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock? Well, they have come together yet again, this time not moving across highway intersections, but across criss-crossed timelines in the movie 'Lake House'. It's a remake of the former with additional twists as what US movie remakes are known for.

Check out the trailer!

Let's spread the word! Hep! Don't dare forget to tell everyone you first saw it here! haha

It's a sad day today...

2006-05-08T11:59:00.000+08:00

Blocked na kami sa YM! oh No! There goes my social life... haha

Trabaho trabaho...

2006-05-05T15:52:00.000+08:00

Aaaarrgghhh. I have so many sabit I'm like a pabitin na!!!! Ganito pala sa media...

Birthdays and Ice Cream

2006-04-24T12:45:00.000+08:00

It was my cousin Judd's bday last Tuesday. We ate pasta ala Mama and ice cream. My goddaughter was there, and her doggie was there, and so were my other cousins. Cosette can't understand me yet, but I told her when she grows up I'll buy her a real doggie and she should come live with me all the time. I bribed her with ice cream and we sealed the deal with a high five. I taught her how to do Oishi-high-five but she still has a long way to go before she could get that.

McFever

2006-04-24T12:36:00.000+08:00

She is so gleng! I'm betting on her to win.

Someone to Watch Over Me is one of my favorite songs...

Sob Sniff... so touched. :* )

Then & Now: The fruits of early training

2006-04-11T12:35:00.000+08:00

I speak from experience when I say that you shouldn't take for granted the formal education that we get from college. Years of training, studying and hard work will surely pay off once you get to the real world. After all, why would our parents strive to earn laboriusly whatever amount of money they can just to send us to a good university, if it were not for a worthy cause? Pointed as well that almost all companies in our country require college grads and would accept nothing less.

Trulily, what you learn in college is invaluable for your success in the future.

............
Before (DLSU ADBROAD days) ........................After (Present)

;P Forever is not enough for me to love you so!

Happy Thought

2006-04-06T09:16:00.000+08:00

Happy Thought: Summer na! Yihee! I'm sure hindi lang ako ang na-eexcite, kinikilig, nasasabik... magbeach! haha

I Love \\\ ...

2006-04-03T14:29:00.000+08:00

And it's all true!

I like adidas more than nike cos despite nike women there is still so little to choose from in their line. Personally, I wouldn't be comfortable working out in minis and midriffs! I like 'em cotton and polyester! hehe

I don't do it on purpose, but I always end up buying adidas when I look for rubbershoes. Maybe becasue they're less bulky and they fit right and look right on my awkward legs.

Nike is still too manly and big for me.

La Gear to too girly.

Reebook and Fila has limited products in their line esp for women...

Everything else is just everything ELSE...!

I heart adidas outlet in Tutuban! It is so big and it is always discounted... It's a happy happy place to be. I love it! I bought T-shirt... =D

North Country

2006-03-24T17:03:00.000+08:00

All I can say is that my sacrifices were not put to waste. As always, Charlize Theron delivered! I was so carried away that I think I cried a whole 20mins STRAIGHT by the end of the movie. I didn't even try to control my terz, that was how helpless I was against the drama of it! This is why I love sponsored premiere nights -- quality movies inside quality theatres... for free! That's what I call overall experience. Heck, watched Mean Girls in one of these events and actually liked the movie!

Though the setting was during the 80's I still think the issue is relevant. Girls have to watch out for abusive situations and take responsibility. It's not about choosing a safe space for yourself but making your space safe. Does that make sense? Like when Josey thanked her friend for getting her that job after having had a bad confrontation with her ex-slash-superior, because she felt like she was finally living. Limiting yourself to where you could go and what you could do and up to how much you could live just because you are a girl in a man's world is just andaya man!

Sacrifice sacrifice

2006-03-20T18:25:00.000+08:00

Today is Monday... supposed to be my 3Bs day. B-adminton, B-BQ, and B-eer day... but unfortunately I got too excited with everything that's been happening this past few days that I tired myself out. Now I'm low-bat.

I want to sleep because tomorrow I have premiere night: North Country with Icey, my movie buddy. Yehey! I wan't to recharge.

Movies are my weakness... di obvious? I also love Monday 3Bs, also my Tuesday cellgroup... now I feel bad because I had to give them up for Charlize Theron and go-go-girl power drama... Especially today since there are 4Bs! Badminton, BBQ, Beer and Belly! Tuna belly at the BBQ corner near the badminton center... I'm hungry.

Hay dilema....

I want to be everywhere but I get tired... I want to be wonder woman... or at least darna... WTF? Darna?!!... grabe na 'to. Malala na. Better sleep and rest early!

Under the Tuscan Sun

2006-03-16T18:44:00.000+08:00

QUOTABLES...

Frances (Diane Lane): What are four walls, anyway? They are what they contain. The house protects the dreamer. Unthinkably good things can happen, even late in the game. It's such a surprise.

Katherine(Lindsey Duncan): Regrets are a waste of time. They're the past crippling you in the present.

Katherine: Never lose your childish innocence. It's the most important thing.

I only saw half of the movie on HBO, but I liked it enough to go ahead and watch it anyway. A thing I almost always never do because I hate it when I miss parts especially the foundation of the plot which is the BEGINNING! haha. galit? I want to go to Italy...

Korean Movie nanaman

2006-03-07T17:06:00.000+08:00

I don't know why I keep loving these Korean movies. They just crack me up!

*100 Days With Mr. Arrogant

Yashica 635 TLR

2006-03-07T17:02:00.000+08:00

This is our Lolo cam: Yashica TLR with matching rust and dust and tuklap all over!

My Lolo (may he rest in peace) used to own this. He even won a photography contest c/o Lucky Strike with it. It was a photo of him with a cigarette and a wink in Black and White set at self timer. It was the same photograph that was mounted on top of his coffin during his wake.

A dashing memorial.

I wonder where that picture is now...

Anyway, after retrieving the above artifact from its forgotten resting place in a relative's house in Zambales, we are ready to prepare a place for it in our home where it will be immortalized and finally labeled accordingly as "heirloom".

Hopefully the plan for a display shelf will push through anytime soon. Lolo cam will be joined by my mother's old automatic cams, uncles' SLRs and my first pink Snoopy cam... also, our Casio digicam (previously mentioned) now that it's pretty much busted like the others... will be commemorated for its services just like the rest of its predecessors. :)

Already got dibs on the collection! heheh...

Color Nerd!

2006-02-10T17:28:00.000+08:00

Lance always forwards these chuva sites to our emails.
Why I always check them out... I don't know!
This lastest test is to find out what your color is---my color is

BROWN?!

Oh well, sounds just about me :) Bakit naman kasi kulay crap!

Sony N1

2006-02-08T17:27:00.000+08:00

It took me some time to read through the manual of the SONY CYBERSHOT DSC N1... and until now I'm still not done exploring this new baby of ours.

It all started when I "accidentally" soaked our old 5.0 Mega pix Casio Exilim EX Z50 in mineral water and then "accidentally" dropped it on the rocky dirt road of Sagada... it's a long story.

2 months later, at Christmas, it stopped making clanking sounds inside and just took pictures with white lines all over. Yep, they said it was the LCD that took the blow and now repairs would have to cost us 15K.

What?! The new version of the same cam in 6.0 mega pix costs 13K for crying out loud!

So logically, we went on to canvass for a good deal on a new cam. After combing through all the malls we ended up in P. Gomez, Quiapo (credits to Joseph who referred the place... after I had to squeeze the info outa him! haha jowk). All the cams at the store we found there cost only about--- 10K less than those in the mall. I saw several cam stores there once I had the chance to look around...DAMNSHIP! I found a goldmine!

I've been looking for you since college ADRAPHY days... where have you been all my life?

We examined most of the cams there and this one is "the latest top of the line". (Yeah, we allowed ourselves to be sales-talked). But I am knowledgable enough about the fact that this cam costs Php8,499less in Quiapo than in SM!

DSC-N1 Major Features:
Sony 8.1 Megapixel
Carl Zeiss 3x Zoom (38-114mm equivalent in 35mm photography)
3.0-inch Clear Photo TOUCHSCREEN LCD
Lightweight and thin aluminum body
Pocket Album function stores up to 500 VGA images
Unique slideshow feature with music and transition effects
MPEG Movie: 640x480 VX Fine w/audio at 30fps
ISO Sensitivity: Auto, 64, 100, 200, 400, 800 equivalent
Flash with Auto, Fill, Forced Off, and Slow Synchro (Red Eye reduction available)
Rechargeable Lithium-ion battery and AC charger included
26MB internal memory + Memory
Stick Duo & MS Duo Pro cards

The Cyber-shot DSC-N1 is about the same size as a deck of playing cards and incorporates a high-performance, 8-megapixel digital camera, with a large, 3-inch, touch-screen LCD. The N1's album function automatically stores up to 500 of your favorite images in VGA resolution, and uses them to create dynamic slide shows with music and transition effects – in the camera.

Take pictures with the confidence that you’ll get excellent picture quality. With the N1’s 8-megapixel imager, its resolution is extraordinary for a compact camera. The all-glass Carl Zeiss 3x zoom lens lets you capture images with the utmost sharpness and clarity. Sony’s Real Imaging Processor LSI provides excellent color accuracy and incredibly fast response times. Its advanced power management system delivers long battery life; up to 270 shots per charge. With shutter lag minimized to just 9 milliseconds, you won’t miss those important moments. Moreover, the N1 offers excellent ISO sensitivity, which is of particular importance when shooting in low-light conditions. You can capture faster action at night with less blur or, in certain conditions, avoid using a flash altogether.
Showing pictures to your friends and family is more enjoyable as the 3.0-inch LCD screen is almost the size of an actual photograph. The menu functions are accessible with your finger or thumb thanks to its innovative touch-screen interface that eliminates the need for most control buttons. With Sony’s Clear Photo LCD technology, your images will be bright, with high-contrast, and easy to view in virtually any environment. The N1’s album function automatically stores up to 500 of your favorite images for a “pocket full of memories.” By recording each image separately, once in full-resolution and again in 640x480-resolution, your favorite images accumulate for easy recall and sharing wherever you go.

The N1 creates slide shows directly on the camera without using a PC. Images can be played back with such advanced features as transitions, pans, wipes, fades and
zooms, choreographed to pre-loaded soundtracks. You can also use your own music, using the camera’s supplied software. With the camera’s built-in speaker, your slide shows are sure to have that cinematic effect with sound to complete the experience.
from the article in:Steve's Digicams

Via Mare Tea

2006-02-08T17:17:00.000+08:00

Waiter: Ano po order niyo?
Me: Coffee nalang ako.
Kiara: Iced tea.
Mama: Ako coffee narin. Kaw Parsley? Iced tea?
Kiara: Masarap iced tea dito.
Parsley: Iced tea.
Tita Tet: Ako tea na lang.
Waiter: Ano pong tea ma'am? Lipton tea, Green tea, Camomille tea, Mint tea.....?
Tita Tet: Tea-back.

...

BTW, Tita Tet ended up drinking choco...

Its beginning to look a lot like Valentimes... A Quote

2006-02-03T16:00:00.000+08:00

The thing I love about Neil Gaiman aside from his power to create these lurid worlds is his unique insights on things such as:

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... you gave them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. it hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-your-apart pain. I hate love."

HAPPY HEARTS DAY TO ALL WHO IS IN LOVE!

Why is the sky red?

2006-02-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

I read once somewhere that the sky is red trice in a day... at dawn, at dusk and at midnight...

Pic taken 01/29/06, 1am at 52 Aragon St. Aperture at F8.0 & Shutter speed at NR2.5"

No Photoshop edits here! Took this with our new Sony Cybershot N1 at manual mode. Details about this great cam to follow!

Tomorrow I Love Ya

2006-02-01T16:45:00.000+08:00

I've been doin a lot of reading lately... neil gaiman, arundhati roy, gregory maguire, the New Testament...

I sooo feel grown up!

Then it came to me; like the sun coming out tomorrow. That’s it! That’s how it feels. It is finally getting a glimpse of land at dawn after long starless nights at sea.

Once I read how postwar appears to a survivor – Peaceful. Gray. Ashen. Dead. The worst is over, but afterwards, you and the debris are left to your own means. Beginnings can be scary; but after everything that has happened… it doesn’t matter anymore. It’s God’s assurance that He is on your side and you have a plan, a strategy, a connivance.

And again you can find yourself smiling like you haven’t smiled before. A long overdue goodnight kiss.

Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1

Yey for Pinoy Cinema!

2006-01-27T15:50:00.000+08:00

I've told myself over and over that I just had to catch this wave of rising indie digital films. MABUHAY ANG PINOY LOCAL CINEMA! No more teeny-bopper masa-popularity-riding plotless advertisement-glutted mediocrity! haha. I am a passionate supporter. :) just when I thought the love-teams and hubaderos/hubaderas are about to kill our local film industry, lo and behold--- hope starts to peak just beyond the horizon, all thanks to this technological breakthrough called digital cinematography. I tried watching Cinemaone Digital Film Festival last July and Cinemanila International film festival last October but I was only able to catch one or two entries unfortunately.

Unfortunately also, I missed The Blossoming of Maximo Oliveros, internationally titled so as Phils' first full-length feature film featured in the the prestiged Sundance Film Festival. (tongue-twister there). Maybe I'll catch it on DVD instead...

Well there are others to come. Here are the current up and comers to look forward to:

I don't know how they'll measure up, but based on the previews: Big Time's plot looks interesting and the humor is witty-haha not slap-stick-haha; Cinematography of Kaleldo looks WOW... but we'll still have to see I suppose....

Epilogue

2006-01-23T20:13:00.000+08:00

"If you knew what was going to happen, if you knew everything that was going to happen next-- if you knew in advance the consequences of your own actions -- you'd be doomed. You'd be as ruined as God. You'd be a stone. You'd never eat or drink or laugh or get out of bed in the morning. You'd never love anyone, ever again. You'd never dare to."
-- The Blind Assassin by Maraget Atwood

Congrats to the new Title Holder!

2006-01-22T15:27:00.000+08:00

Time stopped for 3 hrs as the whole nation paused to witness it.
Kudos to Manny Paquiao for his game today! Hurah hurah!!

VS
...........(title holder) .........................................(challenger).....

Watching this morning, I noticed another title in the challenge...

VS

for MOST EFFECTIVE ENDORSER - and the winner is.....!

This is a very happy day for Filipinos! But to take note also, a very happy day for the advertising industry. ;P

A Come Back

2006-01-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

HA AH AH AH AH! It's alive! This blog has been resurrected!

If you happen to be wondering what I've been doing lately... well, I've been doing a lot of things here and there, lots and lots.

For one, I've gone back to school. Yes, I have finally done it!
As you can see here in this photograph of me with my colleagues, we are thoughrougly engrossed in accomplishing our current project. Hopefully the outcome will be favorable and the professors will mark us accordingly...

That's me at the lower left, yun putol. :)

Kapamilya Summer

2005-04-06T14:21:00.000+08:00

Yahoo! Thank God for the Holy week! oops...I don't mean to sound disrespectful, thank you Jesus for saving us and dying on the cross, and thank you that we have this holiday to celebrate.

Beach! Beach! Beach!

You don't want to mess with me when I'm angry! I don't hesitate to use my super powers when things get in my way. "Super-wind-blow-attack!"

"Rahrrrr! Take that!"

And thus this pala-pala met its ill fate on my hands!

This is me, wreaking havoc at the beach! Destroyer of all bamboo sheds! Rahrrr!! >)

Then, I make my great escape! Evil villans must not be seen at the scene of the crime!

***

When I'm not doing evil things, I just enjoy any normal day at the beach.

I was trying to do my own version of an ABS-CBN Kapamilya Station ID. Something similar to Assunta De Rossi's pose.

Unfortunately it happens to be a really windy day...

But I still got my pictorial done though! :D
I just hope I still came out photogenic in the last shot.

For more summer pics check my galleries! ;)

I Wanna Be The Next Top Model

2005-04-05T04:31:00.000+08:00

"Pleasure is for the beautiful body.
But pain for the beautiful soul."
~Oscar Wilde

I recently saw America's Next Top Model. I remember watching the ending of the second season. I'm not an avid fan, I just happen to come across that particular episode -- twice on Star World. Of the 2 remaining contestants a girl named Adrianne Curry won. She used to be a waitress before the contest. They flashed a clip from when she started out in auditions. Wearing that tight long sleeved long gown, all black, with hideous purple eyeshadow and smothered pink lipstick; no wonder Tyra Banks wrote a big fat NO! beside Adrianne's name.Nevertheless before announcing the big decision Tyra said to her, " Adrianne you are the biggest transformation..." They made their decision based on this photograph of her.

Black and white, close-up, smokey eyes, bare shoulders.

Both photos were superb of course, but what sets her apart is nothing near outward beauty. The judges said you can see it in her eyes that Adrianne has lived more.

" You're edgy, different, unconventional. you are America's next top model, you are the future..." said Tyra

***

Maybe I'm unproffessional. Maybe I'm inept. Maybe I'm just too insecure. Where do you put success in this uncertain canvas of breathing masterpiece? It is my work put into commercial public viewing. Is she smart enough? Is she eloquent? Can she handle pressure? Can she earn us money? Maybe we just don't need you, thank you very much. We'll just give you an imaginary call.

Little voice inside my head: " You're just being pessimistic."

Is that bad then? To recognize that I am inadequate?

I like to be different. It may be annoying for some people but I don't know who else to be except for myself. Without a personality, I am just an ugly shell. Quiet, alone, non-existing. I cannot afford to be invisible and unheard. Not anymore. I don't have a beautiful body, maybe that is pessimism, but i would rather take the pain to know that I at least have a beautiful soul. One that has endured and lived, despite weathering times.

"Experience has indeed taken away more than it has been able to give. It has suddenly occured to me that the real artist is measured by the ability to utilize misfortune in recreating the soul...for the first thing an artist must recreate before true art can be realized is his own soul.
~from Francisco Isacano's SONIA

Rejection may be a part of the necessary pain we had to endure to know just exactly where we must place ourselves. What and who we are. Maybe by knowing, in the future, hopefully, we can find our niche and there reveal our true beauty. That which is not limited to how we look like, but what we can express. Experience, knowledge and honesty. Don't they count as another dimension of beauty? I wish I can be like Adrianne. Some people may think such reality TV contests are shallow, but what I saw that night seemed far from anything stereotypical. It made me want to be just like her. Not that I ca be as tall , sexy, beautifully telegenic and photogenic as her, but maybe someday people will see me beyond how I look and what I do. Maybe see me for who I am and what I stand for. Just like her. maybe in my alternate universe, in my niche, they'd see my beautifully pained soul.